As some of my friends already know, I have been going through some tough changes. I have been thinking of using this blog as kind of a journal and posting my experiences as I go through the process of treating my cancer. The thing is, I am kind of a private person and I hate to show my emotional side, even to my closest family. It makes me feel weak and out of control. I don't want pity and I don't want to be perceived as a whiner and I am not sure I can record my experiences without coming off that way. It is an emotional rollercoster, to be sure. Of course, I do know there are a few of my friends I could count on to jerk me up straight if I stray to far into the weeds and that may be a very good thing. Sometimes we need a hug, and sometimes we need a firm boot to the backside to keep us on the right path, ya know?
So, I need to know what you think. I really want the input, so be honest. If you think it is creepy or self serving (things I have thought about myself) say so. Have you been there yourself or gone through this with a loved one? Would you care to know or would it fall squarely into the TMI zone?
I have been using this blog to help me sort through my own head and heart and so far everyne has been super nice and supportive.
ReplyDeleteDeb....I'm With You. I Got Big News I Can't Talk About Yet....You Can Do This. I'll Help If You Get Into The TMI Zone....God Be with You,John
ReplyDeleteYou Might Even Help Someone Else.......And Mention The Squeeze
ReplyDelete@ Andromeda: I know I have some really super contacts. They are all really good, genuine folks from all over. I just don't want to run them off....LOL
ReplyDelete@ John: You know the part about the firm boot? Well, I already knew I could count on your boots...I was kinda thinking it might help someone else and you can bet I will be pounding that early detection drum, ad nauseum! Big news, huh..you're gonna drive me crazy (crazier?) doing that. Can't wait to hear....
Deb......i think talking about experiences are a good thing..........you may very well help another without even knowing it, if you decide to do it
ReplyDeleteWell, there hasn't been a lot of feedback, but I am leaning toward doing this. I have to say I have been really lucky, to date, with the way things are going for me, all things considered. Well, maybe it isn't really luck. I have so many people praying for me, I am humbled by the thought. I believe that sincere prayer, or meditation or whatever positive, thoughtful intention is part of a persons belief is a powerful thing. I guess I need to put together a blog about what has happened so far.
ReplyDeletei learned something long ago Deb............and that is...........if you have "gut feelings" about something.......listen to it :)
ReplyDeleteIT WILL BE OKAY TO JUST SIMPLY DOCUMENT YOUR EXPERIENCES LIKE YOU WERE IN A GROUP FOR CANCER PATIENTS.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Dotti.
ReplyDeleteDeb.....It Might Help Someone Else Seems To Be An Overwhelming Choice.....It's The Reason I Do The Squeeze On The Third Of Each Month,To Remind People To Give Them A Squeeze,Because It Might Save A Life,Or At Least A Booby..I'm a Marine,I Like Boobies
ReplyDeleteDebbie, I've missed all these posts! I can't believe it. I'm so very sorry to hear what you've been through and are still going through, though I take my hat off to you. You're a amazingly strong woman.
ReplyDeletePlease, please don't feel that what you're posting is TMI. So many go down the road you're travelling now wondering if what they're going through is normal or not. My closest friend had an aggressive brain tumour and I remember all her self-doubts and feeling of being on her own with it. What you post is bound to help... and even if it helps just one person, it's worth it. That one person could well be you too : )
Hell No.....You're Fighting A Disease That's Killed Far Too Many Family Members Of Mine.....Fuck Anyone That Sees This As Self Serving.....It's a Good Form Of Release And Education
ReplyDeleteGod Bless You, Deb.....You Got Bigger Cajones Than This Combat Decorated Marine
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