Ranting and Raving

This is getting old, fast!  I know this won't go on forever, in fact, the chemo part will over by the end of August.  That seems like a long time away, though.  I am getting sick and tired of being sick and tired!  I am not the kind of person who has ever been unable to do what I wanted, when I wanted.  That is just not happening right now.
It's Independence Day, a day for celebrating our nation's birthday.  A day of being outside, cooking and eating with friends and family, watching those glorious fireworks displays with all the martial music when the sun goes down.  (I just love those Sousa marches!)  But I can't do the heat at all - and it is very, very hot here - and even thinking about eating BBQ, or hot dogs or any other outdoor cooking treats is absolutely out of the question!  Not that it matters, my tongue feels scalded and nothing, not even water, tastes like it should. Thankfully, these things only last about a week and I start feeling better.
The new thing, though, is weakness. I have a persistent shaky weakness in my legs and to some degree, in my arms. It has come on slowly but is not improving with time and I suspect it will continue to get worse as time goes by. I so want to get up and do what I normally do and I just run out of steam. Who would ever have thought I would be complaining that I couldn't take the stupid trash out!  I am still trying to do as much as I can.  I figure it will be worse if I don't keep pushing.
On the up side, I haven't lost my eyebrows!  Well, not all of them.  OK, it may not seem like much, but hey, you claim your victories where you find them, right?  I still have a few eyelashes, too. Otherwise, well, I don't have to shave my legs anymore, either!
We are getting ready to go to town and watch the fireworks display.  So many towns around here have cancelled due to the extreme drought and high fire danger.  Mangum shoots theirs off at the football field, so it is more contained.  We will be taking the RV and parking in the lot outside the arena.  That way, if I just can't hang, I will have a place to go chill.  We should be able to see everything just fine from the parking lot.  I am taking the camera and maybe I will get some good pictures I can share.
OK, enough whining...